coexistapart's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- those who forget the past are destined to repeat it I have not made an entry in ages, and for that I do apologize. I have all kinds of stuff written down from Hawai'i but splice it out into coherent entries has turned into a mountain in my mind. I can't sleep, and I have no idea why. I'm tired, I went to the gym, and I haven't had caffeine since yesterday. What gives? I could blame on the time difference, maybe, but I was just about falling over much earlier last night; and if it is going to be jet lag, I've got another four hours until a decent bed time. Tomorrow's Friday and Friday's the weekend. I don't really need one yet, but I'm certainly also not going to turn it away at the door. More changes to fb. Arg. I was looking at twitter earlier, and you know you could really get wrapped up in reading other people's twitters. It's just dumb and insane. I constantly say this, but I need less internet in my life, not more. That being said, since trimming down my fb contacts to 145 there's really very little to browse (read: stalk) at 12:30am when you can't get to sleep. I pretty much know everything there is to know because I see it come up in my newsfeed. With Juanita's baby blanket complete, I need to find a new way to semi-occupy my sleepless time. I'm really going to try and get my editing and scrapbooking under control, but, again, that's kind of hard to work on late at night. I picked up a magazine that we had at the hotel in Hawai'i. It's a Martha Stewart publication, something along the lines of Life + Style. It's got a cheesy "how to spring clean your life" feature this month and I really took a lot of what they had to say to heart. So much so that I'm going to reread it to see what else I need to do. Today, as I was unpacking my suitcase, I took the opportunity to skim through my pj drawer, tshirt baskets and such. And I was able to purge a small garbage bag's worth of clothes. This surprised me because I figured I had *already* done a good job in February of selling most of the like-new clothes I don't wear. But this was more about going back and purging the things you think still fit or just look bad. Again, I was surprised to think that I had any such items but I found a couple of sweatshirts from Camp Elite, from Posh that are not "favourites" so I don't wear them anymore; a pair of pajama pants that are newer, but just too short; souvenir tshirts I bought that have shrunk, or are too heavy, or just plain ugly; a Jacob 3/4 length shirt that I love, but that has shrunk since I bought in 2003--meaning I've told had my wear of it. I manage to fill a small garbage bag. It also got me refocused because we are going to Denver at the end of May, to visit Big's family again. I am going to do a run at the outlets (and the regular mall) because I will need real clothes to go back to the school in the fall; and if I leave at the end of July, when am I going to buy clothes? I mean really. I have, maybe, 5 tshirts that are ok to wear to a class or tourist outing in a country with 40C degree weather. So I want to buy new clothes, and right now I would not be happy going into a store. I know this from Banana Republic mid-March. It's not that I've necessarily gone up a size, or I have a tremendous muffin-top that didn't exist before, I've just gained an inch in all the most inconvenient places--probably 8lbs total of inactivity. This is not such a big deal to me; I mean I'm acknowleding it, and I can deal with the situation accordingly. I know I was depressed in the fall, and it also took me about four months to realize that here, where I don't walk, my "maintain" needs to be 60+ minutes and not the old 25. Fine, so be it, I just need to do some work. Purging the old clothes was good; they can go to charity, and really there's no need to hang onto anything that you will never feel good in (because it's old, ratty, doesn't fit, faded, ugly, misshapen, not right for you in the first place) while at the same time acknowleding that I need new clothes; I can be the one to make sure that they aren't necessarily larger. I'm trying to think what I have on my agenda right now. Not much really... I mean I have things that I should take care of, that I'm avoiding, like more eBay, and sorting out a way to pay my taxes online, and calling the Israeli embassy when they're only open 3 hours per day, or going with Big to get a new phone while this 2 for 1 Blackberry promotion is ongoing, or getting some real books from the library, but at the moment I'm not trying to force the issue. I'm just letting things be. 12:39 a.m. - 2009-05-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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