coexistapart's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Proverbs 19:20 It is such a strange feeling to wake up and have most of the day, empty, in front of you. I guess I had forgotten how much this eBay business (nay: BUSINESS, as in company) had taken over my life and removed it somewhat from this notion that 08-09 would be a year of intellectual leisure. I decided at some point last week that I would not list anything between December 20-January 5. Those were just arbitrary days that, in my mind, bracket when people are away from their comuters, away from their homes, and away from regular habits. It would be a waste of many listing fees to list during that time, plus even *I* deserve a holiday. Then yesterday came about that it made sense to make a Sunday-Sunday the last listing days, even though I'm trying to get back to not really doing any work but resting on Sundays. However I went to a nice church service in the morning, so that helped me get along through the day, working just as hard as Big on a couple of projects. Now today, I don't have to list anything on eBay if I don't want; frankly, I'm not even sure that it makes sense, but I have less than a dozen items, all very similar, and all fairly straightforward, so why not? I'll probably get to 2pm this afternoon and be tired of reading, scrapbooking, and watching television. In the mean time though, I am looking forward to reading, scrapbooking, and watching television. I'm rereading the "Little House" books, and while they are not as exciting (per se) as I remember, they are fun and cute and highly enjoyable. I'm not sure that I could ever write juvenile fiction because the arc of a story line is just so short and contracted, I suppose because children have a shorter attention span and less of a penchant for details. In theory at least...though I'm not sure that educated children of a hundred years ago were the same way. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. I do have a couple of items to wrap and ship--although I may finish that wrapping tonight, that might be a good thing to do in front of the television...instead of spending as much time as I do ploughing through it in the mornings. I will need to ship some domestic and some international items, which means I won't be able to do it all at the automated machine; I will have to stand at line, which I don't mind doing so much now that I make a point of ONLY standing in line at the location nearest to our house; the employees are just as overworked, but much nicer. I need to buy groceries, get the car washed, go to Sam's Club, get gas, buy some more service-people gifts. Just a normal day really. I finally made my pissaladiere this past weekend. I alwayw knew it was a good recipe, but it was a real hit. It's super chewy, very soft pizza. It was a perfect way to use up some odds and ends. Not much else is new...we're leaving for Christmas in Denver next Wednesday after work I think. That's inherantly frightening because I still just don't like Christmas. Big's annoying smaller brother will be there, which will make everything just a little bit less fun, but I think we're still staying in a hotel to avoid THAT problem and for me to get some beathing room. On the whole, we (Big & I) have decided to do a much smaller Christmas this year. Not intentionally, but kind of out of respect of everyone's situation. And because I was feeling the screws of STILL not completely understanding his financial situation, even though he just got a decent raise and he should get a Christmas bonus. I mean I know I "got Big that big TV," he was just mentioning it this morning, but I knew he was 100% going to buy it eventually, whether he could afford it or not, and it made a lot more sense to buy it $400-%500 off the regular MSRP if he was going to buy it eventually. (Let's just not tell him about 15% markup that I'm going to have to pay now that the CAD versus USD is no longer the same....) There's nothing to discuss really, but it did occur to me this past weekend that I positively used to DREAD weekends here with Big. Unless we spent the weekend out shopping and running errands, and even sometimes then (because he does it to the extreme and I found it exhausting,) I would feel so smothered because he likes to watch movies and completely, unequivocally vedge in darkness. Whereas I like my weekends to be a vague continuation of normal days, but with fun errands, meeting with friends, meals out. This past Friday a coworker in El Paso was throwing a birthday party for his wife, that I would have liked to go to; but Big forgot about it until the last minute, such that he did not want to go. In the past that would have made me really angry, missing the opportunity to get out and socialize with other people, but then it just made me only marginally annoyed; I said--hey, I would have liked to go but you never asked me. I'm getting much better at dealing with things, mentioning them when they are truly important and not so that I can feel better. Last night I was really irritated and overwhelmed because I felt like Christmas had got out of hand. I tried to get into the spirit this year, making garlands and gingerbread cookies for an old fashioned tree, buying some gifts for my friends, sending cards, but that's kind of my limit. Big has been playing Christmas carols for the past week 24/7 and all the secular songs just start to irritate me. It might me different if it was "Hark the Herald Angels Sings" or "Joy to the World" ad nauseum, songs I grew up with, but granny getting run over by reindeer? None-the-less, I just went to sleep by myself rather than bring it up so late at night; and granted, I probably WAS quite tired from the gym earlier, and it was getting late, and I had spent several hours on eBay with very little success, but then this morning when Big called from work we discussed it very briefly (5 minutes, max) and I felt like the issue was completely resolved immediately. With no eBay this week, I have to make sure I cut back on computer time. I have some public entries to add, so that's it for now. 10:05 a.m. - 2008-12-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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